Friday, February 21, 2014

I'm back in Da Housee!

Hey y'all sister combat honeybunch is back in the house sorry for my long absence I had a stroke last summer and unable to blog and a long long time since I will have the use of one hand now, I'll be dictating this via Siiiri who is often a crack ho and messes things up so this turns into gibberish it's her fault. 

Way yes I did have a stupid stroke  for just a few days after running a half marathon after my stroke to relieve pressure from my brain I hadtwocraniotomy's Answwhich is just a fancy wayof  sayingbrain surgeries (soI'm pretty darn smart now) the doctorsto remove part of my scalp and thryplaced in my stomach to keep it alive which was the weirdest thing in the world because I could feel it through my belly       Anyway,I spent the entire summer in the hospital and following that withsix weeks at a nursing homecoming now  I'm now a pro at using a bedpans  now not something i ever wanted to learn about that was awful is a horrible experience 

I had to relearn how to walk and how to talk I know some like a computer with a mouthful of marbles I'm getting therapy followed that for those things I wentfrom being told I may never walk again to  up igwtting around in a wheelchair to know walking with   just using a straight cane.   
When I was in the hospital I don't know if this is while I was in A coma ,orjust lying in the bed but the words from a humnfrom the church of my childhood were stick in my head on auto-repeat   gaveme such comfort the songis based on believe Psalm 121 To theHi Ills I left my my eyes ahh from whence cmesmy help allmy  helpcomes from the Lord,never slumbers never sleeps    this gave me such comfort tell me that the Lord is not Sleeping on The job. 

All of this to say is that this time was from was probably seven or eight years old the church of my youth so if your parents are-wondering if the faith seeds you planting inyour kids Are taking 
rootI can tell you yes they are continue to fertilize and the plant that growlove it and talk to it

As most of you know I've always been a very independent motivated ambitious career focused person no I suspect most of my days as a sharded in my home watching Steve Harvey of all things I need a 
purpose y'all I want my life back so badly I need to be The wife and mom I used to be

Tom the bomb has been amazing through all this while he's still works full-time during the day and spends the evening taking care of me and and our son if I hadveto go to bathroom throughout the night he has to get up and help me which really does a lot in the romance department. 

My prayer is that the Lord restores me soon so I can be the mom that I need to be first Logan sake and the once I need to be for tom'ssake. 

Spent a lot of my time in the nursing home Prinkey my friends which is so much such a mature thing for me to do and once I returned I would print them and videotape it and post it on YouTube which I'm sure they loved. It was lots of fun y'all you do what you got to do when you're a shut-in to enjoy your day. Don't judge me Turn that this awful experience it's going be used to God's glory at some point I will be healed and I'll be able to minister to minister to others and help them along their journey of hardship

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Butterfly Effect?

If you could go back in time and change something, would you?  Would you go back and try to make things different...better?  II wonder if I would I go back and save a boy who was 13 when I last saw him.  And would I be saving him for him, or for me?  Maybe both.  I have always felt like I failed him, I wanted to save him, protect him and yet I was only 18, I didn't know what to do or how to help.  So I left and I didn't look back, because looking back was too hard, too troubling and too hopeless.  Its hard looking at the things you know you can't change, watching helplessly as someone you care about makes mistakes or is used and abused. 
I have to remind myself I was only 18.  I was only 18.  But i knew.  I knew better.  I knew that growing up in that house could easily destroy him like it did his brothers.  Or the very least crush his spirit and kill his ambition.  And now, 15 years later this boy hurts and has tried to take his own life.  I guess I can't call him boy, he is no longer that bright eyed 13 year old I knew.  But I can't help wondering, could I have saved him from it all?  And if I had, would it have made his life better, or worse?  Would it have completely changed the path I was on in my life.  
Thats the hard part, there is never a way of knowing what could have been.  Mulling it over is an exercise in futility.   You just have to faith that all things happen as they should.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Photo Challenge

I was tagged by Helena for this, I thought it sounded fun. This is what you do and this is who I'm tagging.

1. Open the fourth photo folder of your computer.
2. Choose the fourth photo in that folder and publish it in your blog.
3. Explain the photo.
4. Challenge four bloggers to do the same.

I will challenge Ashlee, Kspin, Saint Seester and Jen-have fun!

This is Kiki around 2 1/2 (wow, the same age Boogs is now)-unfortunately its a fairly boring shot, but he is sitting in our entryway wearing a sweater with a polar bear and his boots. I'm guessing he was putting them on thinking he'd go outside, not sure. You can see our carpet is actually clean and white in this shot. This was taken the first winter after we moved back to Northern Michigan from Chicago. We are now in our third, and coldest winter since being back. Looking forward to seeing what everyone else puts up!

Its too bad the picture to pick wasn't the third, because Boogs breaking into the box of Smirnoff is a much funnier shot!

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Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Pledge Not To Consume Month

This month my wonderful Church is challenging us to pledge not to consume for the entire month of February.  Here is what they have to say about the whole thing...
As we reflect on faith and economy this year, we want to explore how we can move beyond the economy of money and live out of an economy of faith. February is our designated 'Pledge Not To Consume Month' (it is the shortest month).
The two simple guidelines are as follows:
1.) Don't buy anything new except food/toiletries for the month - just the absolute essentials (gas, mortgage, bills, etc.).
2.) If you really 'need' something, is there a way you can you borrow, barter, or even buy it used?
Feel free to 'customize' your month experience: Can you refrain from eating out for a month? Can you skip the dopio mocha-foo-foo drink? What about iTunes? Books? Shoes? 
Is there something you will 'need' to buy in February (Valentine's Day reminder) that you might be able to buy now, ahead of time?
Make sure to visit our Facebook page to groan, offer support or flame the church for this insanely stupid idea. Share your stories, ideas, experiences, feelings with each other.
How many times have you went to Target to get some deodorant and come out with a $5 movie, a new pair of shoes and some pop tarts?  I know I have!  Its so easy to buy and less easy to save.
So the Sassys are attempting to do this, however we already consumed a meal out which technically is breaking one of the suggestions.  I think Jim and I will have to come up with a plan of just sharing our weekday lunch date in my office, he'll have to deal with that (he hates eating at my office).  So does anyone else want to jump on this band wagon with me?  I'd like to figure out how much money we save at the end of this month with not going out and not buying random junk and share it here.  God knows I already have too much random junk, I don't need more.
I think it would also be a good time for the Sassys to downsize a bit and simplify.  It would seem these two go hand in hand.
I'll probably pop in here periodically to update on how we're doing with this and see if anyone else has decided to join in the spending free month.  But until then, happy February!!

Thursday, January 22, 2009


I guess someone likes us so we were just informed we were in the running for the best mommy blogger award at this site So go vote. A coffee cup and link love depend upon it.

Aside from that, I got very angry today at a driver. And because Sister Big told me we need to blog more, I'm going to rant for a second.

First, yes, I admit I was on my phone. But I was driving slowly through a parking lot. I had just driven up a row and had begun turning left. While I was turning left a guy in the next row over turned very quickly right and drives quickly toward me.

I think for a moment and figure-hey, if I stop and wait for him I'm going to be blocking him and traffic and force him to pass me on his left, in the lane that goes in front of the store. So I continue my turn. However, car continues to drive quickly at me, going very fast and with no intention of stopping. He does stop as I complete my turn, and yes I was driving slowing. When its snowy in Northern MI I drive very slow-even in a parking lot. But I wasn't crawling. Just not speeding around.

So I look him like "Uhh! What the heck are you doing??" and he mocks me, he pretends to be a ditzy girl on a phone. I was sooo mad! I wanted to scream "Buddy, my talking on the cell has nothing to do with you tearing around a parking lot! Clearly I shouldn't be on the phone, but dude, its no reason to sherk responsibilty for being an A-HOLE. I would have gone after him but his passenger was an old lady and I had this thing about old poeople. So just stewed about it.

And had I not been on the phone, I would have done the same thing. I had the right of way since he was not there when I turned.


And there is your blog for 2009. Enjoy lol :)

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